Monday, November 28, 2011

Creatures of habit

Whether it's food, sleep, extra activities... I'm a creature of habit.And not all my habits are productive.
I tend to overthink, over compensate, overreact, over indulge, over expose, over analyze, over infringe, over and over again.
Nighttime is my "write" time. Or should I say, the wee morning hours. I awaken somewhere between 2:30am and 3:00am and the routine begins.
Check the weather, check my email, check my facebook, read my bible, pray, read a commentary, read fellow bloggers posts.... Drink coffee.... Lots and lots of coffee...
Sometimes habits are not healthy, but this nightly ritual has proven to be very beneficial... I have found strength, inspiration, peace, the early morning hours.
I tell my friends and family, it's my God time.
What was the day before, and what is to come are reflected upon. An ending and a beginning. I like new beginnings. Fresh starts... Do overs... Second chances..

My life has been full of them.
In these hours I come to the core of what is important.... And it always come back to one central theme, thought, emotion.... Love.
Love is the foundation of who I long to be, what I long to reflect, who Christ is... Love.
It's what I believe in more than anything else... Love exist.
So, as bad, unproductive, unimportant, some of my habits are....this God time is one habit I don't want to break.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Warped humor

Proverbs 27:9 The Message (MSG)  Just as lotions and fragrance give sensual delight, a sweet friendship refreshes the soul.

I love to laugh....
I surround myself with friends who keep me in stitches. 
Laughter is the best medicine for me.  I just spent another day hanging out with one of my favorite friends.
She makes life fun. And the stress of the routine, the pain of life's dissappointments, the bordem of day to day, is washed away in the tears of a knee slapping moment.
How blessed I am to have such great friends.
They don't take life too seriously, and they don't let me either...
All is well in the world over a pumpkin spice latte and a good chuckle.
One thing I can say about my friends is this.....
They have a positive outlook on life. No sorrow to deep that a smile, a wink, a laugh can't make better. 
And...... That makes them the very, very, very best friends this girl could ever ask for.

Proverbs 17:17 The Message (MSG)  Friends love through all kinds of weather, and families stick together in all kinds of trouble.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Tales from the Dark Side

I am dealing with an emotion I have been having lately.....

Anger has always been something I don't claimed rights too;  fearing it would reveal it's ugliest parts within me and devour my very soul.

Anger makes me lash out, makes me cruel, makes me UGLY.

I am usually a very "in control" person and anger takes CONTROL of me. I don't like not being in control of my own emotions and reactions....

I give away my power............ and in the RAGE.... I become weak.

ANGER runs the gamut of emotions, but the outcome of it's venom is spewed upon others who happen to fall prey, or slip past unknowing, ..................the innocent get the worst of it.

It is like a side of me that I never knew existed emerges from some deep crevasse.....

Where did this ANGER come from?

Anger is an emotion characterized by antagonism toward someone or something you feel has deliberately done you wrong.
Anger can be a good thing. It can give you a way to express negative feelings, for example, or motivate you to find solutions to problems.
But excessive anger can cause problems. Increased blood pressure and other physical changes associated with anger make it difficult to think straight and harm your physical and mental health.

I know, even God was an ANGRY God at times.... but I ain't no GOD! Guess, I need to do some relaxation, anger management type techniques and forgive myself for being less than perfect.

Here are some tips for dealing with ANGER I found:
  • deep breathing
  • visualizing
  • change of scenery
  • humor
  • become a better communicator
  • work on problem solving techniques
For now, I'm going to breathe and relax and laugh and communicate with my family better this weekend.

Gotta start somewhere!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Posted from Grace is for Sinners

Now What?

Ever had a season in your life where you question everything you thought was real and true? That is where I am. Seems like I have been in the "twilight zone" for so long.....
Now what?
I'm searching the Word for the answers...
Now what?
I feel such displacement.....
Now what?
I know enough about my Lord to know this...
He has the answers I don't have
Now what???
I'm believing that He will lead me.

But in the waiting.... the longing to hear Him.....I'm wondering....

Maybe my question should not be,
Now what???
But,.... What Lord???

If you're in this season, know you're not alone.
God is with you....

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything
 1 For everything there is a season,
      a time for every activity under heaven.

Friday, November 4, 2011


I usually don't ask for prayer, but I need my fellow believers to pray for spiritual discernment in my life.

Thank you for praying! 


Ephesians 6:18 "In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open.
Keep each other's spirits up so that
no one falls behind or drops out."