Friday, May 27, 2011

My Robin with an i....

If you have ever had a friend who inspired you to be more than you ever thought you could be, ..............consider yourself to be blessed.

I have a dear, precious friend..... to me known as Robin with an i.

Twenty years ago in college, I was sitting in Dr. "DON's  Western Civ. lecture,  and I looked across the room and saw this "classy" lady with long, full... (okay it was big) blonde hair, dressed to the max. At that very moment,  she looked back at me and smiled. That was it. The bond was made. Friends.

And we have been friends ever since.  Through thick and thin. Through marriage, college, babies, dogs, and careers...... our friendship has grown into something unique and beautiful.

We instantly became known to many as "the Robins"  Robin with an i, and Robyn with a y. But everyone who was ever around us very long knew............ we were friends. We have bared our souls, cried rivers, knee slapped, belly laughed til our sides hurt, listened, consoled, hugged, and supported each other through each other's life journey.

She has been a source of strength and inspiration to me, a constant in my life, when other things were not so constant.
The qualities that she reflects in her day to day life, have made her a lady of integrity and honor. She is what many would call a "class act!"
Family, they say "you are born to go through life with", and friends, "you chose to go through life with"........ and I am glad to have a "Robin with an i" to be there on my journey and to allow me to share in hers.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Ever been angry at God?

Isaiah 55:8-9 (New International Version) 8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. 9. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."

I found this scripture, I believe not by accident, but by the power of the Holy Spirit.

I haven't Blogged in a as been busy. Our son just graduated high school. Senior pictures, senior parties, invitations, thank you notes, graduation gifts...and all this while going through a major life transition.
Because we have only one child, empty nest loomed over the joyful, proud moment of a child becoming a man. From my role as mom, to confidant, advisor, and friend. All within the time frame of about three months.

With any major life transition, it is human nature to become reflective on where we have been in our life up onto this point, and where our life is headed.

I don't do change well. How ironic that Change is the name I selected as the title of my blog. Was there symbolism there?

I have always been someone who tries to figure things out... look for the deeper to understand the ....WHY.

Sometimes I wonder if it because of a need to control an outcome, or is it pure curiosity? For whatever reason...that is who I am.

I don't understand why some things have happened in my life. At times I get resentful. At times I get depressed. At times I feel hopeful, at times I feel hopeless.

But as I pondered on this.... I have to admit, there has been some anger as well. I'm normally a peace maker. But raging within me.....has been a torrent. A battle. A war. Why am I angry?

I read somewhere that anger is the outward emotion of inward fear. So...what do I fear most? Change.

And the one thing that is inevitable is CHANGE. So do I live in fear or do I accept that life is going to go on without help from me. I can't predict where my life is headed. And I can't control the lives of others.

But God can. I have to let go and let God. Get back to the center of who I am, who my creator is, and trust His plan and purpose for my life.
Jeremiah 29:11... For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord...