Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Ever been angry at God?

Isaiah 55:8-9 (New International Version) 8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. 9. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."

I found this scripture, I believe not by accident, but by the power of the Holy Spirit.

I haven't Blogged in a while....life as been busy. Our son just graduated high school. Senior pictures, senior parties, invitations, thank you notes, graduation gifts...and all this while going through a major life transition.
Because we have only one child, empty nest loomed over the joyful, proud moment of a child becoming a man. From my role as mom, to confidant, advisor, and friend. All within the time frame of about three months.

With any major life transition, it is human nature to become reflective on where we have been in our life up onto this point, and where our life is headed.

I don't do change well. How ironic that Change is the name I selected as the title of my blog. Was there symbolism there?

I have always been someone who tries to figure things out... look for the deeper meaning....search to understand the ....WHY.

Sometimes I wonder if it because of a need to control an outcome, or is it pure curiosity? For whatever reason...that is who I am.

I don't understand why some things have happened in my life. At times I get resentful. At times I get depressed. At times I feel hopeful, at times I feel hopeless.

But as I pondered on this.... I have to admit, there has been some anger as well. I'm normally a peace maker. But raging within me.....has been a torrent. A battle. A war. Why am I angry?

I read somewhere that anger is the outward emotion of inward fear. So...what do I fear most? Change.

And the one thing that is inevitable is CHANGE. So do I live in fear or do I accept that life is going to go on without help from me. I can't predict where my life is headed. And I can't control the lives of others.

But God can. I have to let go and let God. Get back to the center of who I am, who my creator is, and trust His plan and purpose for my life.
Jeremiah 29:11... For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord...

1 comment:

  1. Change has always been what God has in mind when He willed to create mankind. He said, "Let us make mankind in our image and likeness." God, one in and with His only-begotten Son, will change every man who will believe in Him and in His name, who will hear and keep His Word. From mortal to immortal, from foolishness to wisdom, from sadness to joy, from strife to peace, from hell to the heavenly kingdom, God will change His children, His people who were born in His house through His Son Jesus Christ.