Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Radical Changes

A year and a half ago I began to deal with the mess my life was in.  I turned to GOD. Being a PK (preacher's kid) all my life, I was use to being in church, and in God's word. I had grown some as a Christian over the years, but I never knew how little I had grown. I was in church every time the doors were open. I sang in the choir, taught Sunday School, lead VBS, even worked in our church library. I was involved in the activities in church all my life. But, was that what God wanted out of me? Apparently NOT!

I did not have a clue as to a real relationship with the Father was like. Oh, I thought I knew him. I prayed, didn't I? I went to church, and said my prayers. But, I had no idea the LOVE, let me stress that word again, L-O-V-E that our Holy Father has for us!!! Romans 5:8 "but God showed his great love for us by sending his son to die for us while we were still sinners"

Let me break it down like this: I have a son who is now 17. He is the most precious thing on this earth to me. Would I allow him to be beaten, scoffed, tortured, mocked, and then hung on a cross in public viewing, for a murderer? How about a prostitute? If this person could come to know Christ if my son died, would I let him suffer and die for someone so lowly, vulgar, and unworthy of love??? Well, God did! He loved us so much that He sent his son to this earth to become human! He loved us so much that he allowed him to die on the cross for OUR sins. My sins. It blows my mind. I think I love,.... have love,.... express love.   I haven't a clue of God's genuine love for me. The word LOVE appears in the King James Version over 300 times alone. If you add up the other forms such as loving, loveth...etc, there are over 500 times love is referred. So I believe that God is LOVE. If his word is about love and he tells us he loves us, and how we are to love each other, then..... shouldn't we read this book!

The bible is our direct communication with God the Father. I never knew this and I was a Christian. I heard it said, but I did not KNOW it. It took my life going through a RADICAL change to awaken me to some simple truths. I needed Christ more than HE needed ME! Go figure. I think I thought I was doing him a favor showing up and "working" at church. But, man I was blind. I needed HIM! I was on the floor, face down, couldn't lift my head, and low and behold........... I prayed........... and He heard and I felt such love engulf me.... makes me want to shout right now just thinking about it! LOVE lifted ME! My SAVIOUR lifted ME! 

I am one hard headed woman! I thought I had this religion thing down pat. I was moving and shaking "Robyn's" religion all over the place. I was justified and moralized and just plain STUPID-fied..... I thought I had a relationship with God. I thought I knew what being a Christian was all about.... but let me share this. I KNEW NOTHING! and you know what.... I am just barely beginning to see the pure joy that having a true relationship with Christ is all about.

God did not NEED me. I needed Him. One of my favorite verses has been Psalms 40:2...."He brought me out of the pit of destruction......" I was in a pit. I was not growing in Christ. I was clicking along thinking everything was just wonderful...........and BAM. Nope, God has some RADICAL CHANGES to make in my life. Thank God, he loves me enough to help me make the necessary changes I need to make. And, He is there to be with me step by step,  minute, by minute,  side by side.


"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8 (NIV)

4 comments:

  1. Robyn, Again you hit the nail on the head. I could have typed this post as well. I can feel the love of God poured out from you through these words. I have learned for myself that I just need to be real. Not my "Church" self, but my real mistake maken self. I thank you for being real, because I needed to hear this today. Thank you again.

    In Christ love,
    Tisha

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  2. Thank you, Robyn, for sharing your faith and being so honest and real! :o) Love, Melanie

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  3. Lord have mercy, do I ever know what you mean! Ah, the arrogance, huh? Thank you for sharing. I can soooo identify with you. I have said many times that this past year has been the worst year of my life and the best year of my life. I know that you KNOW what I mean. I have found God in new ways. He has blown himself out of my nice little boxes I had Him in. He is still revealing more and more of the truth in my heart... or what I thought was the truth about Him but is a bold face lie. Again, I am being faced with "what do I truly believe about God?" He is good and He is faithful. Oh how thankful I am that He is so patient and loving!

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  4. Robyn, this really ministers to me, and I have been walking in this same place too! Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing. It is great encouragement to me in my struggles as well. I pray that we can all be encouragers to one another as we walk the way God has planned for us.
    Love you,
    Donna Manning

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